I've thought a lot about love and everything like that.
And I've yet to come to a conclusion about the only thing I've realized is that there is probably no such thing as one true love...
You can fall in love whenever and you'll never be really ready for it.
And you'll never know what kind of person you'll fall in love with...
That person can just as easily hurt you and ruin your trust with the opposite sex.
I don't know much about love but i know that it is a beautiful feeling and trust and honesty is the only way for a relationship to work.
I'm probably preaching to the quire and maybe i have no idea what I'm talking about but it just feels good to let this kind of stuff out it makes you feel better not necessarily so other people can read it but because it somehow makes it better to write down your feelings....
If you think I'm wrong please let me know.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Friday, June 6, 2008
Family
They say family is alot of people who are bonded by marriage or blood.
People who care about you and are there to support you...
THAT IS A LIE!!!
my family does not care unless it is for their benefit
for example when my grandmother died she left a little money and since my fathers sister works at a bank she has access to that account and she decided that she had done so much work in helpin my grandmother that she took almost all the money and left little as nothin for my dad.
Now this should have been the other way around since he took care of her until she died and his sister did as little as nothing she saw her twice a month and did nothing for her.
Now i have been diagnosed with asbergers syndrome and ever since my family has "helped" me of course it's just so they look good to other people you know "i have helped a child with disability" that kind of stuff...
I have this wonderful boyfriend who i can't imagine my life without and again my family has meddled in and for the past nine months they have been trying unsuccessfully to break us up.
this has resulted in me hating every last person in my family.
So if anyone says family is the most important thing you have that is a load of boohockey
The only important thing is yourself and your friends.
Beware of your family! they SUCK!
People who care about you and are there to support you...
THAT IS A LIE!!!
my family does not care unless it is for their benefit
for example when my grandmother died she left a little money and since my fathers sister works at a bank she has access to that account and she decided that she had done so much work in helpin my grandmother that she took almost all the money and left little as nothin for my dad.
Now this should have been the other way around since he took care of her until she died and his sister did as little as nothing she saw her twice a month and did nothing for her.
Now i have been diagnosed with asbergers syndrome and ever since my family has "helped" me of course it's just so they look good to other people you know "i have helped a child with disability" that kind of stuff...
I have this wonderful boyfriend who i can't imagine my life without and again my family has meddled in and for the past nine months they have been trying unsuccessfully to break us up.
this has resulted in me hating every last person in my family.
So if anyone says family is the most important thing you have that is a load of boohockey
The only important thing is yourself and your friends.
Beware of your family! they SUCK!
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Marriage
Marriage is a strange word and it seem that it doesn't have that much meaning to people.
I know that once there was no such thing as a divorce, It existed but it wasn't proper to get one.
Back then people married one person and stayed with them till the end.
My Grandparents on my mothers side were together until my granddad died of old age.
But what i am wondering is why people get married if they know that it wont last or worse they don't love each other.
I know that i am going to marry the guy that i love and i won't get divorced when things get tough and i hope that it will last until one of us dies like it was with my grandparents.
Would less people get married if there was no such thing as a divorce?
Maybe only people who were really deeply truly in love would get married and have kids.
What would happen if everything would just fall into place and everything you plan for your life wouldn't get screwed up nothing unexpected would come along and ruin it?
Would everyone be happy or would they end up screwing it up them selfs?
Maybe our instinct to see everything fall apart is too strong so we end up ruining everything our selfs.
If you have any views on this please comment
I know that once there was no such thing as a divorce, It existed but it wasn't proper to get one.
Back then people married one person and stayed with them till the end.
My Grandparents on my mothers side were together until my granddad died of old age.
But what i am wondering is why people get married if they know that it wont last or worse they don't love each other.
I know that i am going to marry the guy that i love and i won't get divorced when things get tough and i hope that it will last until one of us dies like it was with my grandparents.
Would less people get married if there was no such thing as a divorce?
Maybe only people who were really deeply truly in love would get married and have kids.
What would happen if everything would just fall into place and everything you plan for your life wouldn't get screwed up nothing unexpected would come along and ruin it?
Would everyone be happy or would they end up screwing it up them selfs?
Maybe our instinct to see everything fall apart is too strong so we end up ruining everything our selfs.
If you have any views on this please comment
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Been Wondering
I've been wondering allot about death and grief that follows it.
Now i lost my grandmother two years ago on June 6th at the year 2006 (06 06 06)
And when she died i didn't really cry about it until the funeral.
And that was only because the music was sad and everybody else was crying.
I guess i felt sorry for everyone especially my dad since he and his mother were so close.
And it wasn't until recently that i started to miss her i don't know why but i never really went through the grief stage.
And just now all of a sudden i started to think about her and i realized that i felt guilty about never coming to see her at the old folks home even though she was always asking to see me.
I never went to visit her because i always guessed there would be enough time to see her.
And Now i understand that there is never enough time.
I just didn't understand that until now.
now i am 18 and when she died i was 16 and i thought back then that i was so grown up.
I see now that i am still not very mature.
But the point was that i felt this way back then and i feel different now does this happen to everybody when they lose some one or is it just me?
Does everyone wish they had more time?
Or is everyone heartless and don't care?
please comment
Now i lost my grandmother two years ago on June 6th at the year 2006 (06 06 06)
And when she died i didn't really cry about it until the funeral.
And that was only because the music was sad and everybody else was crying.
I guess i felt sorry for everyone especially my dad since he and his mother were so close.
And it wasn't until recently that i started to miss her i don't know why but i never really went through the grief stage.
And just now all of a sudden i started to think about her and i realized that i felt guilty about never coming to see her at the old folks home even though she was always asking to see me.
I never went to visit her because i always guessed there would be enough time to see her.
And Now i understand that there is never enough time.
I just didn't understand that until now.
now i am 18 and when she died i was 16 and i thought back then that i was so grown up.
I see now that i am still not very mature.
But the point was that i felt this way back then and i feel different now does this happen to everybody when they lose some one or is it just me?
Does everyone wish they had more time?
Or is everyone heartless and don't care?
please comment
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Hi i'm just trying something new where i can write my opinions and stuff
so lets hope i can do this
so lets hope i can do this
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