Been Wondering

I've been wondering allot about death and grief that follows it.

Now i lost my grandmother two years ago on June 6th at the year 2006 (06 06 06)
And when she died i didn't really cry about it until the funeral.
And that was only because the music was sad and everybody else was crying.
I guess i felt sorry for everyone especially my dad since he and his mother were so close.
And it wasn't until recently that i started to miss her i don't know why but i never really went through the grief stage.
And just now all of a sudden i started to think about her and i realized that i felt guilty about never coming to see her at the old folks home even though she was always asking to see me.

I never went to visit her because i always guessed there would be enough time to see her.

And Now i understand that there is never enough time.
I just didn't understand that until now.
now i am 18 and when she died i was 16 and i thought back then that i was so grown up.
I see now that i am still not very mature.

But the point was that i felt this way back then and i feel different now does this happen to everybody when they lose some one or is it just me?
Does everyone wish they had more time?
Or is everyone heartless and don't care?

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